The Pursuit.

It's definitely beyond time for me to move away. For those of you who've been through this before.. you know how after high school a lot of people leave and you're one of the few that stayed in town for college, then everyone moves on and makes new friends or they change and aren't the same person you thought you knew, etc... that's sort of where I am. Here's my thought process: 1) There is so much more to the world than where I am right now. 2) I'm not a kid anymore. It's time to branch out and make some plans and dreams of my own. 3) My parents are great, but we disagree on some key points. We can agree to disagree, but when I still live in their house, they feel they still have some say in how I live my life. 4) I can count the friends I have here on one hand. And the ones I do have are either moving away soon too, or will still be my friend if I'm not around all the time. 5) There are other beautiful parts of the world besides North Carolina. I c...

I need to get organized. Seriously. Everything about my life is in such a disarray. It's disheartening when I really take a good, hard look at myself how bad it is. Not only is my physical life disorganized, my room a mess, my car a mess, and my plans scattered, so are other aspects of my life. I'm 21 and have no idea where my life is headed, I don't know what I like, and sometimes even what I don't like. My thought life is disorganized, my dreams for the future.. everything. I don't know what I want, why I want it, or how I want it. I don't know if I ever want to get married. Some days I really want that companionship. Some days I feel like I need a man in my life. Other days I am totally for remaining single all of my days and never ever having any sort of romantic relationship again, save the one I have with Jesus. Some days I love children and want to be a mother, other days (I know this sounds bad but it's the truth), I can't stand kids and don'...