The Pursuit.

I am such a sinful human being. I look for fulfillment in all the wrong places and try to fill the holes inside of me with things that don't fit. I see that they don't fit and yet I force them into place, trying to make them fit anyways, but all I accomplish is to make the holes bigger with all my struggling. The funny (or not so funny) thing is that I already know the road to fulfillment, and the recipe to fill the holes inside me. I know the answer, but it means sacrificing my pride, and I am only human. A filthy, prideful, arrogant, fallen human. Some days I do the right thing. Some days it's easier to do the right thing too. But some days I do the wrong thing. And then some days I just don't give hoot who sees what I do, or how I do it, I just want to be left alone in my selfishness. Sometimes I push people away. Sometimes I push my Jesus away. I would be fooling myself if I said that I was turning over a new leaf. If I told you that things were going to change from...

The sermon in church today was on Matthew 5:10-12. "God blesses those who are persecuted for doing right, for the Kingdom of Heaven is theirs. God blesses you when people mock you and persecute you and lie about you and say all sorts of evil things against you because you are my followers. Be happy about it! Be very glad! For a great reward awaits you in heaven. And remember, the ancient prophets were persecuted in the same way." Wow the sermon was super good. My pastor basically opened the sermon saying that the church needs more persecution. haha. Who would have expected to hear something like that from your pastor but it's so true. American, modernistic Christians have no idea what it means to be persecuted for their faith. I myself, have suffered some, but very very little persecution for my faith. Persecution is what makes us strong. Case in point, a story he told during the sermon today. In the late 80's and 90's there was a scientific project going on (I...